the last day of this bloody year ..

mood: accomplished

2006 was a real pisser. tom & i broke up. both my parents were diagnosed with cancer. my cat stormy went to kitty heaven. my fondest memory of 06' is spending time with russ. we had not seen eachother in over 5 years so because of this i named it fondest memory thus far.

last night was just one of those nights. met up with michelle & hubby at mix cause they were in town from houston. got to see mark and james. dave locked his keys in his suv and pop-a-lock was called. the man that worked for pop-a-lock was a retard. after popping the lock he started dancing to the beat of dave's alarm and looked me in the eye and said, as you can see i don't get out much. ewwww.

para todos: feliz ano nuevo ...

new years resolution -- quit smoking.

down to me, the change has come, she's under my thumb ...

the past two nights i hung out with dave. we are miserable beings who crack the other up. braveheart has invaded bravo AGAIN! i even got all william wallace on russ and told him, thou shalt not talk to me in thy tone. i don't have shit to post. i guess this is all.

love. rosie.

boo on you spurs

<div align="center">crushes should not be allowed when your almost 30. i am almost 30 and have a crush on someone. <br />this has changed my attitude and now i laugh more and get giddy and do crush-like things. <br />what.has.become.of.me? even if this crush never turns into anything more. i am happy for meeting the person that caused it.<br />the end. rose</div>

holy crap

<div align="center">&nbsp;i think all of you remember not too long ago that my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer. after weeks of radiation she is fine now. cancer be gone. one thing that had her really depressed during the whole ordeal was that she missed her sisters. she would cry to me and my sister on how much she missed them and was scared she would never see them again. <br />well! well! well! ......&nbsp; my father just called me right now to let me know that mums 3 sisters are all surprising her tomorrow evening. all 3 of my zia's (aunts)&nbsp; live in italy so my mum will NEVER see this coming. i am so happy and excited. one of the sisters can't make it but c'mon 3 is enough. my mom is going to be shocked.<br />i love how their names all end with an a.... <br />my mum - pia <br />zia - adelina <br />zia - bruna <br />zia - anna maria<br />zia - rita <br /><br />sooooooooooooooooooo excited !!!!<br /><br />let the italian invasion begin !!!</div>

skipping

<div align="center">i'm such the little work slacker. took the whole afternoon off from work and did absolutely nothing. felt good. thanks to work friend isaac for helping me skip work. haha. <br />dave spent the afternoon hanging out here and watching shop girl and eating pizza and watching my fuzzy cable channels. took a peek at brit. spears vag (ewww gross!)<br />m.s. has wanted to see me the last two nights. last night i blamed it on the spurs game. tonight&nbsp; i blamed it on being tired. i don't know why i can't just come out and tell someone i don't like you, leave me alone! crush of all crushes vincent sent me a couple of messages today. so heart him. we have a rollerskating date lined up in a few weeks. cannot.wait.to.see.this.boy.<br />this weekend i have to work for clinique in mc allen doing make-up for some special event. going to try to get out of it tomorrow so i can spend the weekend with my aunts and mum.<br />i also have to go back and find that entry i wrote about card reader gloria telling me i was going to meet the love of my life.. ha. what.</div>

100 years 100 cheers

life blah. things i have done in no particular order (which all probably involve alcohol.) ...

christmas night met up with the usual suspects at joey's bar for gift exchange and stella. alan was in town which is always a pleasure. he chauffered dave and i around in his rent-a-car pimp-mobile. fun times.

tuesday dave came over with little miss sunshine which means i finally got to watch it and fell in love with it. tuesday vincent ditched me, as a matter of fact i still have not heard from him. i called/texted a couple of times and no return phone call/text as of yet ... confused. did i do something? ended up spending tuesday night with vanessa and dave at the little dive bar across the street. after hours m.s. came over. he is sweet.

wednesday night was patrick zeller's party which i bailed out of. ended up at bar america with clarice. had a rosario's boyfriend sighting. always a pleasure...

russ just called me. got to go....

edit --- russ is awesone. he always makes me laugh. that is all. <3, rose

godfather of soul. gone.

james brown passed away. so sad.

doctor doctor give me the news ...

the holidays. i hate them. i feel like i'm the only one. spent the night at my parents last night, still here. the damn crazy ass weather trapped me here from going home. this would have been tom and i's 3rd christmas together. still getting over it. it's hard. i still can't seem to let go. oh rose!

the stress of christmas

i'm not a holiday person. i like normal regular days that were meant to not be celebrated. i just want this holiday season to be over already. is that too much to ask for?

last night was fun and cozy and cold. sara and i lounged around the house underneath my electric blanket watching identity on bravo. i seriously sucked at that. dave and his macbook graced us with their presence. sara and i ended up going out to joey's (bar) for much needed stella artois and hang out time.

spoke to vincent this morning. he gets into town late tomorrow night. he will be here for a full week. tuesday night we are going gaming. ha! who ever thought i'd be going gaming with vincent valdez and alex rubio? completely hilarious.

in other news: today is my friend joey's birthday. he is 34. happy birthday joey!

grey skies

last night dad came over to drop off this enormous yet beautiful fake plant for my home. i guess it's mum's way of making me feel not so alone. anyway i left the plant on my porch because i couldn't figure out where to put it in the house. it rained last night. geezlaweez, leave it to me to even kill a fake plant. :(

i decided not to take/start the job at the cancer care center. i don't think my emotional state could deal with death and illness for forty hours a week. i'm very optimistic that i can find a new job before the new year. i still have my job with clinique so it will be a real struggle but won't be all that bad.

i am strongly thinking of subletting my loft. i honeslty just can afford it and live comfortably. i would barely be getting by.

my parents have started their intervention and asked if i wanted to stay with them. ummmm. i haven't lived with them in about 6 years during those 6 years i stayed with them maybe 2 months. it sounds good in a way. i could save money, go back to school, get over the whole break-up thing but i don't know. i'm going to be 30, living with the parents is just so uncool.

i really would love to just move into a smaller apartment and start new. thing is i have to live in this apartment for 6 months before i transfer to another apartment. fuck!

sinking..

life has been sucking. still trying to deal with post-break-up feelings. i feel really happy one minute then the next i'm in the sulking mode. i guess it's common but i do not like the sulking part. also i was really excited to start my new job at the cancer center but yesterdays training was all about having cancer and how sick the patients are and it's not a happy atmosphere. i seriously do not know if this was the best choice for me now. being sad all day at work then coming home to an empty home is a little to much to deal with. i can't even stay unemployed for a bit cause when tom was here the bills were cut in half and he left me with every single bill including the apartment. i can't even move into a smaller apartment because it's a 200 dollar transferring fee to move plus rent. geezus. today was my last day at university (the happy upbeat hospital.) what did i do?

last night i was able to laugh and smile for a bit. picked up veronica guess and her boyfriend and we went to scuba's for b-b-q and football game. took vee and danny back to their place cause they were going to bennanigans and i went to scuba's where we then headed to the mix and joey's. i started getting a little sad again so cros took me back to scuba's to get my car and i was home and in bed before 2:00 a.m.

my aunts left back to italy today. i feel guilty because they were here for three weeks and i only spent two days with them. i didn't even spend two complete days with them. 30 minutes here. 1 hour there. sad.

i'm such a sulker. i should stop dwelling. it's hard.

living alone blows.

hate this. tom moved out a little over a week ago and i still can not seem to get into the groove of single life and living alone. yesterday was a real shite day. i actually missed tom a little and wished he still lived here so i at least someone to talk to or take a walk with or just laugh with. we were together for over two years and now i realise how attached i really was to him. who knew?

(*note - just because i am going thru tom withdrawal does not mean there will be any reunion of us on any sort!)

today has been a pain in the ass (sorta.) i finally took on the task of cleaning the guest bathroom downstairs and boy does it shine now. so fresh and so clean. i still have to do laudry and i still have to wash dishes. i still have to buy groceries too. i have NOTHING in my fridge. the only think i have that is actually edible is a jar of nutella and swiss miss hot chocolate (lonely girl food.)

sweet. my phone just went off and it's cros saying their b-b-q'ing at scuba's tonight. hopefully i can get all my chores done and go. ha!, i said chores. funny.

rough

weekend you were rough to me. yawn. stretch. i think i went out the past 5 nights in a row. bad. very very bad. today i am grumpy and pissy and even the awesome omelet i made didn't even cheer me up. it's a sunday. i love sundays! i'm just too damn exhausted to appreciate it. thursday night i went to alex rubio's unveiling at blue star. fun. he is the sweetest guy. met up with cros and scuba & them for darts and beers then back to scuba's for pop tarts and milk (that's just how i roll.) friday night carol and i met up with joey and sara at limelight for paint by numbers last show. good times. carol stayed the night. we slept in my little bed together. awwwww. last night sara came over after work and we had a subway dinner then went to meet up with cros and peeps at 00's and logans, got to catch miguel's band at logan's which was fun dancing times (that bar smells like shit though.) today i promised sister i would spend the day with her but i am just too damn exhausted to even move from this couch, plus i have about 4 laundry baskets consisting of dirty clothes i need to wash and to top it all off i have a very dirty house and a million dirty dishes. ugh. this is supposed to be my relaxing day. so.not.cool.

one is the lonelist number.

went out. didn't really want to. hung with joey and had a rosario's boyfriend sighting. ick. tom finally moved out. took all his things. no sign of him in house anymore. after two years it is over. we broke up awhile back but still lived together because credit cards/bills were under our names together. now everything is finalized and it is done. wow. even though we haven't been a couple for the past 2 months it is weird to come home to nothing. just the simple pleasure of knowing another being was here was enough, now nothing. not even a sound. this is a little harder than expected. at 29 i have my whole life ahead of me but i hate to say at 29 another relationship is sent down the drain. now it's back to the drawing board. single life beckons me but i shy away. i kinda knew he would leave soon but what i did not know was how miserable it would feel walking into an empty home. it hurts.

sweetness.

sweet. my netflix came in. an inconvienent truth, alias (last disc), and thank you for smoking. i might just have to stay in tonight and watch movies, maybe order a pizza. mmmmm.

tomorrow night is alex rubio's unveiling for bomb magazine @ 6:00 p.m. at blue star. press conference + opening reception = free food and free wine. yes! it is free so people in san antonio should def. check it out.

friday night sara, joey, and i are heading out to limelight for x-mas party of the year and rap music goodness. nice.

my hands are cold and my tummy is hungry so this is all. <3, rose

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Dec. 12th, 2006 | 04:04 pm
things i have done from last week until today.

attended turtle's 30th birthday party at beethoven's thursday night. drank yummy stella, glorius stella! me, scuba steve, and cros ended up going to the mix to finish the night off.

friday i worked then stayed in. no going out for me.

saturday i finally made it to my parents house to spend quality time with my aunts. i heart the italians. ha. sat. night i met up with carol and the girls for dancing and drinking. carol, daja, and i ended up going to a festivus for the rest of us party that cros invited us to. stayed out til four. carol and scuba are hilarious with their, place thy dainty hoof on thy shoulder. so good.

sunday me, vane, and carol went to that little bar across the street from the house for girl talk and some lone star..

yesterday worked. hung out with carol and cros. he stayed over. talked to v. all night yaaaaay. v. invited me to alex's opening at blue star on thurs. night. v. put me +3 on the guest list if anyone wants to go. dave?

i feel like if i am coming down with a cold or something. i have chills, itchy throat, stuffy head. boo.

back to work. love, rosie

sixty

dragged ass all day. stay up till 2:00 a.m. last night watching alias. woke up at 6:30 this morn to be at work at 8:00. 4.5 hours of sleep is just not enough. newest member of alias = baltazar getty. what? this last/final season is actually good. awww and vaughn is dead ....

december..

<p>cannot believe the year is almost over. this has to be the quickiest year that has ever gone by.&nbsp; i just finished dropping off my rent check. two days late i might add. not good. i had to&nbsp;pay 40 dollars in late fees. got introduced to a new little dive bar last night. this bar is right across the street from my apartment complex . good jukebox. semi-alright drink specials. hmmmm. now i know where to go when i feel to lazy to drive anywhere.&nbsp;i still miss russ a little. we had not seen eachother for five years so i hope it isn't another five years before we see eachother again. what's up with me and the city of los angeles. two weekends ago v. was in town from l.a. (hung with him.) this past weekend russ was in town from l.a. (hung with him.) both are completely awesome/dateable people but they live in l.a. i'm single i should be having a ball but the only two people i feel remotely attracted to or crush on live more than 1,000 miles away. oh well. who even knows if they even like me in that way to begin with. bah. vincent valdez did message me today asking what i was doing for new year's but c'mon thats the most random question ever. i work wed- friday this week from 8-5 downtown. i do not have to work clinique until december 16th. at least i have a weekend to spend with my family cause i sort of miss them and still haven't seen my aunts who are here from italy. got netflix in so i'm watching alias season 5 tonight. please don't suck. guess this is all. rose<br /><br /></p>

sad.sad.sad

boo. i'm sad. russ is already gone. took him to the airport about an hour ago which means right now he is on a plane headed back to l.a.
had one of the funniest nights EVER. picked up russ from airport @ 11:30 and we were off to meet up with van and brad at bar america.
russ had his first lone star. haha. we stayed about an hour then headed off to the mix to meet up with sara and joey. at mix we are all drinking
and having a good time then joey mentions "the haunted tracks." since sara and russ had never been there that became the plan for the night.
completely down for whatever russ and i both agree to go. we met up at joey's house and while we are all deciding what car to go in joey mentions his 57' chevy.
bad idea. that car took FOREVER to start and once it was started i noticed it didnt have any passenger windows. ummmm temperature around 40 degrees. sure, best idea.
sara runs in to find blankets for us but no blankets were found. she came out with two bed sheets and our dumb asses were like okay, let's go.
we get to the haunted tracks around 3:00 a.m. and it was pitch black, creepy, no signs of anyone anywhere. we go over the haunted tracks. (scary!) then someone said, let's do it again and the second time we do it JOEYS CAR DIES. so us four are STRANDED at the HAUNTED TRACKS! finally a car stops and helps us out. strangers take joey and sara to pick up gas and russ and stayed behind in the middle of nowhere, alone, no lights, no cars, in a wooded secluded area. i felt like i was in lost and the others were going to appear and take us away.
dude it so felt like the beginning of a horror movie. i am being so serious. finally sara and joey come back with gas and car starts.
on the way home russ and i did some serious cuddling cause it was soooo coooold. then out of the blue and totally unexpected he kissed me. awwwww.
got back to joey's around 5:00 a.m. russ and i ended up getting a hotel room in downtown cause i was too tired to drive all the way home. serious sleep was had.

today was fun. woke up around 10:00. checked out @ 11:00 then walked to the alamo to do the usual tourist stuff. walked all over downtown. had a nice lunch. stopped at my place for a bit so russ could nap then went to durty nelly's for some irish coffee, beer, whiskey, singalong fun. soon after it was time for him to leave already. didn't even give him proper goodbye cause after consuming all those beverages and not having used a bathroom, i had to pee sooooo bad that our goodbye was basically 5 seconds.

no kiss. boo.

he kissed me twice last night. once in the car and once after we fell asleep he woke me up to kiss me. so sweet. today we didn't even mention the kiss(s.) me being to shy to mention them.
man i miss him already.