i'd walk to you if i had no other way

Dec. 30th, 2007 | 02:37 pm
Currently feeling: cheerful

it is so beautiful outside today.

nuff' said.

things.

Currently feeling: chipper
Currently hearing: everybody's doing the fish. yeah yeah yeah.

been on this tamale eating addiction. i've been eating tamales since christmas eve. this insanity needs to stop. seriously!

got to hang out with alan for a bit while he was in town. awwww, alan's awesome. got to FINALLY hang out with van and brad whom i have not seen in forevereverever.  hung with dave once this week. boooo! i need more dave hangout time por favor.

been watching a lot of lost as of late, getting ready for the new season to start. only watched 1 episode of last season so i'm in serious watching lost mode right now. don't bother me.

courtney lyons, my love, are you in austin yet? i want to seeeeeeee you.

love, rose

ahem...

Currently feeling: devious

not only am i on a tamale eating addiction

but other things i have been addicted to as of late:

• high top sneakers
• headbands
• black rebel motorcycle club
• paying bills bills bills online
• bah. my brain froze up thinking

i know there are more. when i remember i will put them in.

been getting phone calls and texts from not one, but two people. both are people i date previously in the past, past being a year to two years ago.i am interested in neither of them. such a shame shame shame. i'd love to date somebody right now. somebody new though. i refuse to take steps backwards. i refuse to.

lovey, rosie

buy

Currently feeling: ditzy

shit, i haven't had red nails in forever normally their like west side "viva mexico" chola black. the weather is beautiful today. this is all.

love, posey

shame on you.

Currently feeling: jubilant

without even sending russ another message i got this text last night --  

people can change but you haven't yet.i dont expect you to. i never asked you to. i asked you to leave me alone. 

wtf? what in the hell was he responding to cause i never sent him a message yest.? so yeah, there's noway i'm going to respond nor do i want to. it's done. in other news bar america now has an atm and $1 lonestar tallboys. oh la la!. i'm in a la tuna or beethoven's mood today. it's so pretty outside.


* oh and if you read my previous post in it he says people CANT change but i guess now they CAN. what an asshole.

blah

Currently feeling: cold

i'm so pissed that russ and i are no longer friends anymore.
he was that person. you know, that person?
that person that you tell all your funny crap to.
kinda like when something pops into your head or you see something funny.
you grab your phone to call that person, cause that person is the only person that gets you.
he's no longer that person.
it sucks.

cooooold

Currently feeling: cold

my yesterday consisted of:
the west side
raspas
shorts
sleeveless shirts
80 degree weather
a.c. in the car

my today consisted of:
hot chocolate
pants
sweater, plus scarf, plus jacket
40 something degree weather
heater in car

and tomorrow it's supposed to be up in the 80's again.

seriously texas weather, wtf?

blah to the blahness.

Currently feeling: depressed

life is like a box of chocolates. not really.
i wish i had a box of chocolates right now.
i never really liked chocolate until i became an adult.
shouldn't it be the other way around?
i'm @ job #1 (united health group)
they let us cruise the internet when we aren't busy (my kind of job.)
tonight i work at neiman marcus.
last night i hyped up the evening for going out then got anti-social and let dave down.
sorry dude, i was soooooo tired.
i'm still bummed about russ. seriously i gotta get over that already.
i don't get over things quickly. i wish i did.
i want to go tonight. i doubt i will find anyone that wants to.
i hate being 30. all my friends are married, have kids, in relationships or just stay home on weekends. boooooo!
can someone please send me single friends that like to get out?

jobby job

Currently feeling: contemplative

working three jobs is tough.
one is seasonal so i shouldn't complain.
my jobs are interferring with eachother though.
one has got to go.

neiman marcus, clinique, united health group

which one of you do i cut out of my life permanently?

oh and russ never called me again, will not answer my calls or texts, blocked me from his myspace, wants nothing to do with me.

so. completely. sad.

(no subject)

Currently feeling: confused

at the lovely dave's house. drinking lone star, watching spurs, cigarette smoking out in the cold. life is not fair. life is never fair. i'm watching sportscenter and it's sad. their talking about some player that got shot and it's bumming me out like i said, life is not fair. yesterday russ stopped being my friend, did the whole deleted me from myspace and i tried sending a message and it said, "you have to be russ's friend to send a message." wtf? he totally premeditated that shit! i fell asleep. this is all about me falling asleep. i can't go into it now. i'm just super bummed and hurt and sad. i would soooo hold a radio over my head in front of his window if i could right now. life is not fair.

non gossipy gossip

Currently feeling: content

 it's october and i came to work in a bright pink sleeveless summer dress. what is wrong with this picture? today it is supposed to be 92 but if it hits 93 then we will break a record. silly texas weather. i want fall weather already. i want to wear peacoats and scarves and boots already. booooooo. texted with russ back and forth a lot these past couple of days. it's a sticky situation. i feel everything that comes out of my mouth or that i text is the wrong thing to say. i dunno. it's weird. ugggggggghhh. stupid friendships. everything in my life is good right now. not too much to complain about.

love, rose

CALIFORNIA IN NOVEMBER WOOHOO

sing me to sleep

Currently feeling: cold

this is soooo past my bedtime. why am i awake?
had good communication with russ today.
he actually admitted to being a big asshole at times.
he then told me to save that text cause one day i'd need proof that he apologized.
he also thanked me for being his friend (which was nice.)
why can't i go to sleep? ugh.

rose

Nov 12, 2007

ho hum.

Nov. 12th, 2007 | 03:28 pm
Currently feeling: confused

the weekend was good to me. cough seems to be dwindling. finished taking my steroid medicine. thank you jesus!
sister and i went to the chili bowl saturday night. our high school football team played and got their ass kicked by the rival team.
best part of the game was the frito pie and sour pickle i bought. i miss high school. it's been 12 years since i graduated. wow.
california travel is on. cannot wait. russ and i are going to the spurs vs. lakers game in l.a. on the 13th of december.
beer plus basketball equals fun to the 1,00000 power. things seem to be looking up.

Doctor's Galore !

so my life has been revolving around doctors lately. nothing alarming or anything. it's just thee ol' yearly check up time.

1. optometrist - 2 new pair of glasses, no more red yucky ugly betty glasses. my vision slightly decreased. nothing major.

2. doctor visit - i STILL have my wet cough that sounds awful and my nose is always running (it's been 5 weeks.). been using my inhaler a lot. i have 3 more days of steroids for the lung inflammation. AHHHHHH ROID RAGE!!!!

3. 4 hour dental visit yesterday. seriously wtf? no wonder dentist have the highest suicide rate. i'd hate staring in someone's mouth for that long, i'd go mad also. SOOOO the 27th and 29th of this month i have deep cleaning appointments. that shit's going to hurt. 2 quadrants on the 27th the other two quadrants on the 29th. my teeth are in good health. i have one cavity. my teeth are white so the deep cleaning is to get the plaque out from the gumline and under. *barf*

THEN - the asshole dentist told me i have to go back and get 3 of my wisdom teeth pulled out. i was like uh hello, they don't bother me but he was like, Ms. Rodriguez if you want that perfect smile and straight teeth those need to come out. I was like, man i really do want straight teeth and my mind was changed (actually i do have straight teeth except for my main front two. over the years one has moved a little over the other causing me to have a mini-snaggle tooth thing going on, and by mini, i mean mini. snaggle tooth pic under the cut and yes i know i look like lisa (left eye lopes in this pic.)

once thee ol' wisdom teeth are removed. i get braces for 6 months and voila. straight teeth and little overbite - adios to you both.

now all i need to do is lose about 20 pounds and i'll be like some extreme makeover person. lol.

i like me now though. i'm fucking awesome.

OH, OH
i have a crush on a guy. met him monday while out shopping with carol. he stuck out his hand to introduce himself which of course i took and shook. it was completely out of the blue. we talked for awhile. noticed the interested vibe in both our parts. talked about where we worked and blah blah blah. then he asked my friend carol if he could kiss me. completely nervous i got carol by the hand and walked the other way. ahhhhhhhhhh. i need to stop being so lame and starting kissing strangers. his name was cariq. i know this because when he introduced himself he said his name and i said, derek? he said no.i said eric? he said no. i was like, what the hell is it then? and he said cariq. c-a-r-i-q. totally hot guy. in the half american/ half middle eastern non-terroist type of way.
sigh........

Nov 2 2007

everybody knows where you go when the sun goes down.

Nov. 2nd, 2007 | 02:57 pm
Currently feeling: numb
Currently hearing: cry cry cry - johnny cash

called my bank and got the worst customer service rep. EVER! he was soooo rude and sooooo mean that i actually burst out into tears while i was talking to him. weird. i never do things like that. i can't even remeber the last time i cried. yesterday i asked my bank to transfer 130 dollars from checking to savings and when i called today to see if it went thru the asshole acted like if i was asking him to part the seas or something. ugh! i throw both hands up and graciously extend my middle finger to that asshole. uuuggggggh!

in other useless news of the day, sick of it all was in town last night. people called and asked, are you going to the show? my answer was HELL NO!  lou and i have not spoken to each other in 2 whole years. i was told by his fiance at the time, wife now, that i was not wanted at any of their shows anymore. i've always wondered if lou knows that she told me that. it doesn't matter anyway. the past is the past. i missed him for about 2 seconds yesterday. it was hard for me to remember the last time i saw him but i remembered. it was here in san antonio and he was in town for a show. we spent the day walking around dowtown, visiting the alamo like we always do, eating lunch, and laughing a whole lot. i miss all the guys in the band and yesterday was their first san antonio show in 10 years that i did not attend. :(

this is all for today. the cust. serv. rep wore me out.

love and love,
rosie

november.

Currently feeling: rushed

can you believe it's november already?

where did the year go???????

bored.

Currently feeling: blank

my eyes are strained.
my hands are cold.
i need a shower.
i need a doctor's note for tomorrow.
i want to watch a good movie.
i want this cough to go away.

cold.

Currently feeling: cynical

took a day off from work. it's all rainy and messy out. finally the temperature has decresed. 55 degrees out. fall is here! fall is here!

texas weather is so complicated and difficult but when it finally blows in the way you want it to it's such a good feeling. bayonne, new jersey has been stalking my, myspace page again. it's not the mr. it's the mrs. the mr. has a show here on november 1st. even if i was in town i wouldn't go. i hope i never see him again. i feel bad for taking the day off of work. laundry and hot tea time. baci, rosie

venti grande

Currently sitting: work
Currently feeling: aggravated
Currently hearing: parentheses - the blow

russ really pisses me off.  ugh!

the truth

a couple of days ago i was watching the news and noticed the woman that flashed across the screen. she was missing. they found her. she is dead. i used to work with her when i was a freelance makeup artist for clinique, she was one also. our paths crossed again a year later when i was a nursing care coordinator at university hospital and she would go in our clinic for physical therapy. i prayed for her and her family. i didn't really know her too well but it's sad when you hear news like this. so very sad.

sunday.

Currently sitting: parents house
Currently feeling: chipper
Currently hearing: my brother drilling

i didn't go to church this morning. i feel bad.
i went walking this morning. then i went walking again.
cleaned house (just a little.)
have a headache.
haven't been out in awhile.
life is good. life is simple.
went to la cantera yesterday with mum and paid for her to get her hair done.
107 DOLLARS!
it was for my mother so i don't feel too bad for spending so much.
my head hurts.

love, rose

friday

y' know i'm not the biggest fan of keira knightley but her new coco chanel  perfume commercial  is the cutest. 

this is all. 

rose.

hello october

it hurts to yawn. my ears and throat have been giving me shit for the past 2-3 weeks.
i took all my antibiotics and nothing. must be sinuses. actually, let's hope it's sinuses.
been doing a lot of nothing lately. just work. normal 40 hour work week.
carol and i went to dad's on friday night for karaoke fun.
pissed off that taco cabana is right across the street.
of course we had to do the drunken taco stop. ugh. i'm never going to lose weight.
this is all.

two new pictures.

my hair is beginning to grow

Hit.Hit.Hit.

yesterday i picked up giovanni and we ventured out to la cantera and then to the palladium to see knocked  up . woah nelly! walking up to the palladium felt strangely familiar. i felt like i had done it before. i knew that i had never been there and then it finally dawned on me. ceasar's palace. i felt like if i was in vegas for a split second. knocked up was crazy hilarious. my expectations were met.

last night i met up with robbie and dave at blanco tavern for drinks. that place is no good. i'm old. last night i noticed i enjoy patio/outdoor seating in bars than the indoor crowded masses.

i only went to school half a day today. total laziness and piggyback perms were enough to make me clock out early and come straight home. i also have/had a really bad migraine this morning also. i feel better now.

this is all
lovey, rose

Things.

school has gotten to me. i'm irked. do i really want to do hair? i mean, seriously. i love to do color. highlight. lowlights. foils. all of it. i just hate cutting and guess what, all we do is cut.cut.cut. i'm a colorist dammit not a stylist. haha. i knew i should have gone to aveda and taken the damn esthetician course. ::end of rant::

work last night was ultra lame. i read half of the bell jar at my cubicle. the one thing i love about my job is being able to read and do homework at my desk. i get a lot done. got word yesterday from the boss that my benefits start on aug 1st. sweeeeeeet.

met up with veronica guess aft. work. she almost bailed but didn't. we drank our merry little heart outs while singing along to johnny cash's, i got stripes, every 10 minutes. good times. russ and veronica were formally introduced via mobile to mobile. he enjoyed the conversation they shared. insanely funny.

it was a good night long overdue.

Deep

Jun. 9th, 2007 | 09:55 am

mood: angryangry

music: the devil went down to georgia

i really wish i was at the beach right now. there's no place like being AWAY from home.

i've been in this funk for the past two days. it started off thurs. night for the spurs game. i made plans to meet up with veronica for beer/drinking spurs action but she got stuck doing homework so i decided to go to the bar alone. it felt weird. i'd hope she would finish her homework in those two hours but nope, nothing. -- it made me sad.

then last night i wanted to go to alex rubio's art opening so i called sara and she said yes. i told her i wanted to be there at 8:00 p.m. 7:45 rolls around and i still have not heard fr. her. then 8:00 rolls around and i txt her and just basically say nevermind. she then decided to txt me and put "i'm a mean friend". at least i'm a fucking friend that can tell time. -- --- --- i feel so disconnected from ppl.

russ and i got into a little spat. yest. as well. it's probably the emo-overload coming from the two topics listed above that has me in this state.

his txt message to me was, "please don't pick a fight with me. i'm tired and i do not wish to argue." i wasn't calling him to pick a fight. i was calling him because i needed someone to talk to.

i'm so sick and tired of people right now. i didn't go to school today cause i feel so angry inside.

tomorrow i work 4:30-1:00 a.m. i'm so glad. for the first time ever i would rather be at work then spending time with people i actually care about.

rose.

Where do you go?

so next month i will be 30 years old. wow. my 20's are over. where does the time go?
it's weird to think that i will never be a teenager again nor will i be a 20-something year old anymore.
i don't necessarily feel old. i don't necessarily feel young either.

spoke to russ last night and he is for sure, 100%, in for vegas. he'll be driving down the night of my birthday (july 20th.)
i'm completely over the moon that i get to hang out with him for a couple of days. :: does happy dance::

i'll be in vegas july 19th - 23rd. i cannot wait !!!!!

<3, rose

little random things.

sara is back from japan. on wednesday afternoon she brought lunch to the school and we ate happily, talking about japan, men, hair, and what not's ...

veronica guess and i got together earlier on in the week to watch the spurs kick utah's ass. we made it to the final's!!! boo-yah biatches!

school is the usual. we are going thru perm theory (again!). i fucking hate perms. they smell like shit!

old ex-thom text's from time to time. it makes me sad. russ is stupid or just angry. i never get him.

giovanni gave me his jack russell terrier so now lola felana is my dog. she looks EXACTLY like eddie from frasier. cuteness.

i need to call work today. i just tried to pull up my schedule online and  it said, THIS EMPLOYEE IS SUSPENDED!

shit. shit. shit.

love, posey

non.

it feels good to have life goals and know just exactly what you want to be and where you want to go. i swear on my life i will make this happen.

<3, rosie

busy little bee

school has been better than ever. i'm second in my class in speed. i can do a mannequin full of pin curls, stand curls, fingers wave, and roller sets in less than an hour. pretty sweet. today was picture day @ school. i did giovanni, dacy, and brittany's hair. i also did valerie, elisa, sara, tiffany, and chelsea's make-up. i love that people trust me enough to want me to do their hair and make-up. i guess i DID pick the right career field afterall.

i chopped off all my hair on one side of my head. so one side is long and cute and the other is short and butch. at the back of my head they both blend together perfectly making the perfect cut. speaking of, SHEER GENUIS is on tonite also. i'm sooooo calling in.

other news. i'm turning 30 real soon and it's crazy. oh and i cannot wait to see russ.

love, rose

Whirlwind....

i have work in less than an hour. boooooo!!!!

last week was all about work.work.work.
did i go out? i don't remember.

this weekend carol and i ventured downtown and had sing-a-long fun @ durty nelly's, karaoke showdowns @ steers & beers, low-key getting drunk times @ bar america. carol is such a bad-ass. i enjoy time spent with her.

last night i headed out to idky for veronica guess's pre-birthday festivities. fun. i heart her so much. thanks dave for coming out and kicking my ass in darts THREE TIMES IN A ROW.

got to meet some good people, actually one good person.

tonite is veronica guess's birthday thing @ flying saucer. i really hate yuppie, expensive, beer from all over the world places. not my thing man!
of course, i shall try to make an appearance for birthday purposes only. i hate working until midnight. seriously sucks.

i am still hungover from yesterday. can i skip work and just go see a movie please?

love, rosie

morn.

Mar. 13th, 2007 | 06:32 pm
mood: okayokay

it feels like if it is never going to stop raining. i felt really small last night, as in small like a child. the thunder in the middle of the night was so loud and banging that it kinda had me a little shaken up. i don't know why though. hmmph.

this morning i managed to snooze the alarm twice, skip my shower, and make it to school 40 minutes early. what! i seriously thought with the weather and all i should leave an hour early. never again.

school was good. we did roller sets all morning, then for lunch me, brittany, chelsea, valerie, and giovanni all went to north star mall cause we are all funny like that.

afternoon consisted of finger waves. sara called and wants to get drinks tonight. i wish the weather would clear up a little. i wouldn't mind.

zzzzz.

May. 9th, 2007 | 02:31 pm
mood: tiredtired

ah last night. i hate you. i knew i should have stopped at my third stella but nope had another one. head hurts. wait, i mean, head pounds. today is a real busy day for me. i worked from 9:00-12:00 then i go back in @ 3:30 and work till midnight. grrrrrr.

last night was fun though. manuel (cros) was in town from georgia so we all got together @ t.k.o's for the spurs game. spurs lost. booooo!
got to see scuba, shek, mad, sara, dave, celeste, turtle. good times man! good times!

tap. tap.

May. 8th, 2007 | 01:33 pm
mood: numbnumb





cros (manny) got into town last night. he's in town from georgia. tonite we are all getting together at tko's for darts and beer. fun. sara too.

things have been weird these past couple of days. my friend jessica lost her little boy. he was only 6 months old. sudden infant death syndrome. she cried a lot. she cried a lot more because she had her tubes tied when she had him. this life that we live is so confusing.
i sometimes cannot comprehend why things happen to the best of people.

dave, i'm sorry for your loss(es) as well. just remember: out of the darkness comes sunlight.

back to giving my hours for work away. rose.

birds.

the weather is still shitastic! never in all my years have i ever seen this much shitty, wet, humid, rain, tornado, sun for 2 minutes, type of weather. this is texas dammit! bring on the sun!!!!!

friday and saturday were my days off from work and guess what i did. worked. put in 5.5 hours on fri and 6 hours yesterday. wow. sometimes i surprise myself. tonight i work 3:30 - 12:00 a.m. i'm hoping to bail around 10:00 or so, so i can at least meet people out and get a drink or something. I'M CRAVING FRIENDS AND ALCOHOL, THIS WEEKEND OF NONSTOP WORKING IS DONE AND DONE.

i love sheer genuis! how come dr. boogie is the gayest person on the show yet he is the straight married one?
i cannot wait to get my cosmetology license. less than a year away. sighs.

ryan texted me yesterday morning. weird. i thought he hated me, did i tell you guys that he told me to go shave my head like britney spears and go shoot myself, yeah. asshole! he told me this two months back cause i politely told him i never wanted to see him again. men!

i'm sad. russ hasn't called/texted/myspaced messaged. :(

i thought i had more things to write about but i guess not. til then. rosie.

hello.

May. 2nd, 2007 | 11:36 am
mood: cheerfulcheerful
thunderstorm. thunderstorm. thunderstorm. everyday. every night. i miss the sun. when i wrote everyday, every night it reminded of placebo's, every me and every you.

i finally completed my 14 days of training for work. no more 7:00 a.m. shifts EVER! we took our final yesterday. we needed to score an 85 or higher. i scored a 79. i didn't get fired, thank god! but i do have to retake the test this afternoon. i'm a little worried. tonight i work 3:30 - 12:00 a.m. it's going to be a long and slow night.

things have been good. i bought a balance ball and have been exercising like mad lately. did so many crunches on that damn ball that now it even hurts to laugh or cough.

i go back to school on the 16th of may. back to cosmetology. i have missed it. i miss doing hair. i really wish they focused more on skin. i heard esthetics is the next "it" thing. whatevs.

i'm bored of typing. rose.

.bad luck.

Apr. 28th, 2007 | 02:15 pm
mood: aggravatedaggravated
music: kate is great - bouncing souls


jetta's engine check light is on. i tried to ignore what i saw and drive it somewhere but no dice, i had to turn around and drive back home. it is making this crazy bump bump bump noise. money woes. money woes.

i should be at the king william fair right now with a beer in one hand and friends all around me but i'm just not in a social mood. this is the first time in 5 years that i have missed the fair. awwwww. i declined invite to the fiesta flambeau parade tonite also. NOT SOCIAL!

last night was fun. dave and i went to lion & rose which was depressing then we headed to dixie's. dixie's was fun. got to see veronica & pablo. awwww. i heart them.

i'm not enthused about moving anymore. it's like the girl i am moving in with is not communicating with me about WHEN i can actually move in. i might just stay at my parents til' i finish school then finally pack up and leave texas.

why am i all emo today? grrrrrr.

revelation.

Apr. 28th, 2007 | 05:19 pm

 a friend just called me up to let me know my ex is dating her best friend and that their pretty serious, so serious that both are completely smitten with the other.

why does shit like that have to hurt so much?

he moved out mid-december and we lived together/dated for a little over 2 years. nor have we spoken to each other in months !!!

why does it have to hurt so bad?

vegas. weather. numb. work. school.

Apr. 25th, 2007 | 05:48 pm
music: somebody to love - queen

so i have confirmation on my 30th birthday plans. LAS VEGAS !!!!!
last year i spent my birthday in vegas so why not this year.
being that i work for harrah's casinos. i already booked my room at the flamingo from july 19th-23rd.
(harrah's owns flamingo, rio, harrah's, paris, and ceasar's palace)

i chose the flamingo because of this room. isn't it adorable !!!!
russ is driving down from l.a. to hang with me in vegas so i'm pretty excited about that too.

i guess this is all. my head is getting worse. love, rosie

Nekroooooo

Apr. 20th, 2007 | 05:11 pm
just finished a 40 hour work week. ::sighs::
cannot wait to go back to school on may 2nd. i miss my school friends.
everyone is sick with stomach viruses. puke mc pukers.
tonite nekromantix is in town but i'm not going.
i hate not going since their such good friends.
they ride around with me in my little black jetta and use the home to
shower and shave. we also chant "t.r.d." for toyota racing division. (inside joke)
i love that i see these guys in l.a. (their home) and here (my home.)
don't know what i feel like doing. my stomach is in knots.
please don't let it be "the virus."
been missing a lot of people lately.
been questioning things a lot lately also.

rose.

Vampires!

Apr. 17th, 2007 | 05:57 pm

i have free time. it feels good. i go back to school on may 2nd. last night me, brittany, and giovanni headed out to 007 to see calabrese. we get there to find out that the show was moved to a different venue. drove there. the venue place kind of sucked. they played outside in the patio (which reminded me of my abuelita's back porch.) kinda not professional if ya ask me but calabrese said something about their promoters messing something up, so that maybe why.... overall good show. those boys are so hot. gah. gotta love traveling vampire shows. i got home around 1:30 or so and still made it to work at 7:00 a.m. this morning. i'm running on fumes now. all i want to do is stay awake for idol tonite then crash. wow. i'm lame. hearts. rosie

hola el jey.

Apr. 15th, 2007 | 12:22 pm

just stopping in to read all my friends updates/journals. you all are a bunch of busy bee's. congratulations to jenny mae on her new baby girl, olive. such a blessing! congrats to my lovely friend april atomic on the new engagement and congrats to the lovely be calmed heart on the new apartment, i too love living on top floors. that house is adorable!

this week was fun also in the going out sense. got to FINALLY spend time with the lovely sara on wednesday night at the half shell then last night i went to bar america and the industry with school friends/old friends.

on the boy department, well there is no boy. happily single. no real options. no one worthwhile to date. not even someone new to talk to.

i'm still so angry/sad/ that i have to be out of school for 2 weeks. i'm going to be sooooo behind. i waited almost 30 years to become a cosmetologist. what is one year more right?

bell biv devoe

last night was fun.
dave and i met up with john petersen at ghettosville u.s.a  then walked thru downtown san antonio to get to, on the half shell, where hiphopville u.s.a. was going on. i ran into my work supervisor and manager there. oh vey! woke up with a slight headache and not feeling too bad. i didn't sleep that much due to staying on the phone with turtle til' 4:00 a.m. tonite i promised my school friends we would go to, the industry, to get our dance on. shit! shit! shit! i put all my sweaters and jackets in storage! this is all. rosie.

lots.

Mar. 25th, 2007 | 07:24 pm

spring break has come to an end. the week brought death. sad. my father's best friend lost his daughther in an automobile accident. it was the one all over the news with the 16 year old on spring break. such sad news. her name was parisa biglari. then in the same week we lost a remarkable little girl. she was only 7 years old. i had never met her but my sister has shed so many tears for her. my sister was her 2nd grade teacher. the little girl's name was julianna and she died of lieukimia. there is a great story in the metro section today about her. my sister talks a lot about her in it. my cousin elena in italy has been diagnosed with breast cancer. she is young. she has the bad kind of cancer, not the good kind. she already has ordered her wigs and started her chemotherapy. so sad. yesterday i got a ticket while driving joey's suv. the cop stopped me for following to closely the car in front of me. what a bullshit ticket. seriously. my dad is almost over with his chemo treatment. he has become extremely forgetful as of late. it scares me. my mum has her mammogram tomorrow to make sure the cancer has not came back. cross fingers and toes for her. this is all. sorry so depressing. love, rosie

i.give.up.

tues. and wed. night i went out. met up with dave tues. night at bar america. en route home at 2:00 in the morning the damn battery died so i was stranded on wetmore rd. thanks to robbie for coming to my rescue around 3:00 a.m. last night met up with sara at the mix. woah! talk about dead. dead. dead. we ventured next door to joey's. not an adventurous night but not a bad one either. as for men and relationships and meeting someone special. i'm giving up. must concentrate on school and gym.

rosie....

le' end just could be le' beginning.

Mar. 19th, 2007 | 03:08 pm
heard from ryan. miserable at excuses. good at being a sorry excuse. why bother? i like people who like me back and want to spend time with me. excuse me for trying. waste of time. waste of time.

last night had bar drinking, hardcore music time with joey, mark, van, brad, and dave. good times. too much shiner bock. i'm still in limbo about the new camel no. 9 cigarettes. i don't know if i like them or not just yet. hmmmmm.

have serious crampage today. oh the pain. have lots of homework to do this whole week.
(did i mention i am on spring break this whole week!)

tomorrow is job hunting day. i have a job. i just want a new one with less hours. less stress. less responsibility. i can hear dr. phil in the background.

p.s. this morning i joined bally's. gentlemen start your engines. let the weight dropping begin.

mighty.

Mar. 18th, 2007 | 05:15 pm

so no word from ryan yet (gracefully mumbling the word asshole.)
fucking guys are pieces of shits. not all. just the ones i have been meeting lately.
went on a small shopping spree this afternoon. hair products, new purse, new wallet, new perfume, new body spray.
i'm in the mood to do something. anything. just need a good cigarette and a good beer.
i have to admit. i love my new friends. the school friends. of course i love my old friends too.
this is all. i have purse changing to do.

depends.

Mar. 16th, 2007 | 05:19 pm
mood: confusedconfused

2 dollar lone star tall boys last night with dave. ran into john petersen whom i hadn't seen in forevereverever. mr. ryan d. campos was so upset with me for postponing plans with him until late late on in the night. he confuses me so much. i ended up giving in and going over afterall. stayed the night. woke up with enough time to go home and get ready for school.


school the past couple of days has been really fun. i can do roller sets, comb outs, finger waves (which i hate!) and today i my updo was chosen for second place. pretty cool being that it was the first time ever i had done an updo.

i guess this is all.

rose

oh well.

Mar. 14th, 2007 | 10:05 am
last night got to see vanessa, sara, and dave and drink stella artois. life is good.
ryan called wanting me to go over. i didn't go. i wanted to. didn't.
i didn't go to school today. i feel bad.

rose

intro

Mar. 12th, 2007 | 12:36 pm


last night ryan sent me a myspace message saying he wanted me to go over. he has not called me in over a week and out of the blue wants to see me again. men i fucking tell you. it pisses me off because i really liked him. i decided to not give into calling him, nor responding, nor going over. be strong rosie. hahaha. i'm craving something good for lunch. thinking of either pei wei or jason's deli. tomorrow after school i'm heading over to bally's to get a gym membership. my whole goal is to be able to wear a swimsuit in public this summer and not feel bad about my weight or hide swimsuit with boy-bermuda-down past my knees-shorts. i want to show off the goods for once dammit.


<3, rosie

cough.

Mar. 11th, 2007 | 02:40 pm
last night was just plain awful. baby sat the girls for my brother and the next thing i know it's ten p.m. and i have chills and feel completely nauseated and dizzy and just horrible. i put the girls in their room and fall asleep. i wake up at midnight curled over in pain. sick. it's like if i have a stomach virus and strep throat all mixed up together. i can't swallow. can't eat. nauseous. no voice. pounding headache. itchy throat. i was up from midnight until 6:00 a.m. i think by the time 6:00 a.m. rolled around i passed out due to exhaustion and/or dehydration. i do not feel any better today. at least this happened during my days off. hopefully by tuesday i am back to normal.

best week ever is fucking hilarious. austrailia's next top model has me hooked.

In the 07'.

life is good. been wanting to go out and do something but by the time it hits 11:00 p.m. i'm fast asleep.  i can't seem to keep my eyes open these days. work + school takes a toll. my brother had this austin city limits with spoon and the killers recorded. good stuff. i have school this morning also.  more pedicures to be learned. ewwww. i hate feet. tonight i want to do something. i won't make excuses. i will return calls.
i miss the outside world.

love, rosie

Lovey.

Mar. 7th, 2007 | 05:05 pm
mood: cynical

things with ryan fizzled. it wasn't me. it was him. i suppose we will be/remain friends.  eh.  ...



school is fun and hard all at the same time.  the only thing i did today was shadow a student on the floor and that was pretty boring. this whole week is just nails, manicure/pedicure, hand massages. pretty easy.

i'm so scared to start cutting hair. sometimes i think to myself, why didn't i just take the esthetician course?  all i really wanted to do was skin but then i think to myself that having a cosmetology license is waaaaay better and i'm pretty much set on a life long career in either hair or skin for the rest o' my life.  please let the hair part be worth it!

lovey, rose

pink.

Mar. 1st, 2007 | 04:41 pm

week so far:

mon/tues i worked until midnight.
after work on tues. i went to ryan's.
wed. started school. classmates all seem awesome.
wed. night head over to veronica guess's.
take her to pick up her car. drive her rent-a-car back for her.
in return she buys us drinks @ joey's for stella glorious stella.
we hug. say our goodbyes. went to ryan's.
had cuddlefest 2K7. i don't know if i like him yet or not.
today =  school.
school was eh. we did pin curl's on our mannequins all day.
right now. food. so hungry.

love, rosie

hair did.

got my hair did this morning at capri hair salon by the lovely sara. i heart her so. such a beautiful day outside. was stuck in 1604 traffic singing spoon's, i summon you. i have to be at work in an hour. sucks. my hair is short again. in the back it's tapered to my neck and the sides are long. kinda cute if ya ask me. i need to take a picture soon. love, rose

not.

mood: exhausted

so much to do. so little time.
this week is going to be a whirlwind.
wish me luck .....

things to do today:

• get transcripts/take transcripts to school
• get a 25 dollar money order for my student permit
• take 2 2x2 pictures of me to school
• buy 5 pairs of white scrubs.
• buy black tennis shoes
•  buy a planner/organizer
• go to work early to take picture for badge
• put gas in car
• buy new phone (joey f'ing spilled beer on my brand new one and it is dead!)
• haircut (leaving this for tomorrow, i think.)
• laundry, this should be number 1 on my list.

life.busy.

mood: excited

have about one million things to do today:

cut hair, buy uniform for school, buy black tennis shoes, the list goes on....

i start new jobby job tomorrow then i start school on wed.
70 hour work/school week here i come.

i am going to get braces sometime in march. oh so nerdy but then i will finally have STRAIGHT pretty teeth.
i never thought in all my years i would be so excited to be getting braces. i am !!!!

ryan! *swoon* .  seriously, i won't lie. it feels awesome knowing someone likes me (in that way.) i like him too.

corn.

okay today has got to be the most beautiful day of 2007 thus far. i mean it's just perfect outside. there are clear blue skies. slight wind. heat when you stand in the sun. i went outside to vacuum my car  and wore actual shorts, t-shirt, and flip flops. i love you feb.

le' crap.

i still feel all sick-like and weird. ears, nose, and throat are all out of commission. ick. i can't even taste things. last night i nyquil'ed it and was asleep and in bed by 9:00 p.m. wow i'm rowdy. this morning i went to target where i didn't last long. my whole body felt like a ton of bricks. dragged ass thru the aisles. the "good" cereals were 2 for 5 dollars and fiji water was 2 for 10 dollars. i got deals baby! why are sun chips always so damn expensive? i still got a bag anyway.

tomorrow is my orientation for school. i still have to buy all black shoes and white scrubs by the 28th. (that's the uniform.) having verizon is fun. instead of calling me and hearing ringing now you will hear beck's, girl ......

speaking of beck. i made my own four pack of beer @ target today. 1 beck. 1 st.pauli. and 2 stellas.&nbsp; *sighs, oh how i love you target!*

the now

it hurts to swallow and my ear keeps on popping. ah, the joys of being sick in beautiful-like weather. the weather the past couple of days has been perfect. spent all yesterday @ mc allister park with the fam fam. my sister and sis-in-law were determined to teach me how to ride a bike. i got on it but chickened out before my feet even touched the pedals. b-b-q deliciousness was had.&nbsp; before i got to the park i stopped at target to pay a bill and ran into erich in the parking lot. we shopped together and talked for awhile and then he tried to get me to go to a bar for some shots. (it is was about noon, WHAT, no thanks!)

let's see what else did i do this weekend? saw joey friday night, we traveled into south town for cheap beer. i really really really miss living in blue star. vincent told me alex rubio took my old place. reminded vincent to tell alex to get ready for paranormal activity. my space in blue star was crazy haunted.

saturday was fun i spent most of the day with brad (of all people.) saw carol, mark, dave, and vanessa thru out the day/evening. was trying to make it out to holden's 101 for art slam but never made it. oh well.

entitled

this is my first valentine without a valentine in a long time. i thought it would feel different, it doesn't. i still feel loved maybe not by a man/companion, but i do feel loved in all other types of ways. i'm in a good mood and i'm wearing all black too. i despise people that actually dig into their closet to find their red and pink shirts just to wear today. i also think people that own actual christmas sweaters (ex: reindeer on sweater, santa on sweater, x-mas tree on sweater) are really silly. i start school on the 28th of february. i have orientation on the 21st. i lost my phone today. i lost all my numbers in it. typical rose day. i guess this is all.
lovey, rosie

2007 i hate you.

mood: indescribable
music: Yann Tiersen and Shannon Wrigh - 04

life is so shitty sometimes.

i think it just thundered.

vincent made the most effort. never saw that coming.

blah blah blah.

the w.

woke up tired and unmotivated. i am off today. this morning i went over to the leasing office here @ the complex i live in and told them i REALLY wanted to sublet my place for 6 months - 1 year. (it says in the lease i can do that.) they said my loft would go very fast and since i paid feb. (this month) i can move all my stuff out whenever and then me and the leasing agents can start looking for people to take over my lease.

i think i'm going to start looking for boxes this afternoon. i know i am 29 but i think i am going to stay with my parents for about a month or two to save up and then start looking for a nice place, back in southtown, that i can afford.

the main and only reason i moved into this apartment was because thom and i moved into it together and we could afford it together. well, thom is no longer part of the apartment or my life so ---- yeah ---- time to move on...

goodbye medical center.

in love. completely.

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calabrese

Feb. 4th, 2007 | 09:33 am
mood: awake
l.a. trip back on. i am leaving @ 9:00 a.m. on saturday morning. i'll be at the hospital all day friday with my sister so everything works out. doctors are really thinking it just might be a cyst. *crosses fingers*.is that even the way you spell cyst, it looks weird?

i'm kind of kicking myself in the ass for not taking a camera with me friday night to the show. all 3 men in that band calabrese were deliciously hot. so handsome.

up close and personal. so handsome.

the 7 shot screamers show was as usual. fun. entertaining. drunk debauchery. i love those guys. vanessa and i helped out with merch. i was telling them they should take me on tour as their merch girl. .. i wanted to see them in austin last night but i couldn't afford it. gas + drinking money + possible admission = no.can.do.

ground hogs.

fi.

what's cooler than being cool, ice cold ....

caught re-run of top design at my neighbors house this morning. todd oldham, what the hell happened to you?
you used to be this gay, short, attractive man. they did a close-up of him on the show, talk about fug.

jonathan adler. whatevs.

oh and p.s. i secretly wanted marcel to win top chef, i'm an asshole like that.

spurs and beer

last night neighbor joey and i headed out to whiskey's for some beer and to watch the spurs loooooose. i had two michelob ultras. i'm dieting so yeah. ultra's. don't really care for them but i am sticking to this diet. people asked what dieting i'm doing. i'm just doing that special k one.
i have a bowl of cereal with fat free skim milk for breakfast, than one of their protein bars for a snack later on, for lunch i have another bowl of cereal, then another snack, then dinner i eat whatever i want but a healthy whatever i want. i'm drinking only water and diet pepsi (sugar free caffeine free.) i'll let you know if i lose anything.

tonight the 7 shot screamers are in town. yaaaaay. i heart those boys.

you're a weiner

even though i no longer have cable television. i got 3 texts in the last 10 minutes letting me know who won top chef. oh la la so secretive.

the good. the bad. the confusing.

dave came over. he slept. i trolled my space. such is life.
i want to go to drink and draw on the 10th at meltdown comics in l.a.
i called vincent cause he is my only l.a. connection and he said he'd go with me.
he was on his way to meet lara flynn boyle cause his friend married her.
i thought that skinny troll was with jack nicolson. i'm confused.
russ is being difficult. he's out at a bar and couldn't hear me and all he kept
screaming in my ear was, DID THE SPURS WIN? why the hell should that matter to him.
i guess this is all. rose.

Jellllly.

Jan. 28th, 2007 | 04:36 pm
mood: excitedexcited
i'm getting over my stomach bug from this weekend. so not cool. didn't go out once cause of said stomach bug. talked to russ a whole lot this weekend. actually we've just been talking a lot more than usual. got a phone call/e-mail from kevin letting me know the 7 shot screamers will be in town next week. i get to see them once in san antonio and once when i'm out in l.a. i leave on the 9th to los angeles for a couple of days. so excited. i can't wait for the 10th cause not only do i get to hang out with the screamers, russ is going with me to the show, and i get to see april. i'm super excited. yaaay for me.

this magic moment

dave + laptops + popcorn + tom arnold = thursday night.

i get my glory in the desert rain ..

mood: moody
music: bling confessions of a king - the killers

i am so hungover. it's 3:44 p.m. and i still feel hungover. to top things off my parents washer died so they will be here @ 4:00 to do some laundry and hang out. couldn't they have called my sister or one of my brothers? seriously? why me?

low.

Jan. 23rd, 2007 | 12:50 am
location: bedroom upstairs
mood: exhaustedexhausted
life of a single person.

played with the stray cats outside of my apartment for awhile. drove to southtown to take some money out of the bank. target shopped (twice). payed phone bill. had jason's deli for lunch and e.z.'s for dinner. had to drive to the e.z.'s on pinche de zavala cause the one down the street from me on bandera rd. closed down. walked in the cold. burr. thoughts of cleaning my house went in and out of my head but i never got around to it. watched the white rapper show @ joey's and laughed my ass off. burned a little music online. send texts. received texts.

isn't my life AMAZING. ha.

got a text message from russ saying he was experiencing technical difficulties.
(what in the hell was that about?)

tell me we both matter, don't we?

Jan. 22nd, 2007 | 01:28 am
be running up that road, be running up that hill, be running up that building ...

into the new.

i ventured out. everyone was on the roads. life is back to normal. the icicles are melting. sara and i had a long phone session of girl talk. i love her. neighbor joey came over. we dranks beers, watched idol, burned music. had phone time with russ. took the longest nap ever today from 3:00 to
7:00 p.m. tomorrow back to the norm.

so long.

my only television is this old big screen t.v. that tom and i shared. when tom left the television stayed. it's so ugly. today i'm getting rid of it which means i will no longer own a television. i still do not know if i am happy or sad yet.

ice ice baby

day three of being stuck in my house. looked online, yep schools/highways/work all closed. i'm going to try and venture out today. i need food dammit. i also need to think of a way to open up my car door. i tried and tried but no luck as of yet. everything is covered in ice. boo on you ice. someone (my dear kristopher) must think i'm awesome because last night they drove across town in this non-driving weather to bring me yummy snacks and beer and diet soda. this person is still here now. :)

rosie

freeze in full effect

location: downstairs
mood: nostalgic
music: every you every me - placebo

yaaaay for warm smokey bars. yaaaaay for 20 something degree weather. yaaaay for schools and jobs and everything else being closed tomorrow. yaaaay for the phone call from russ. yaaaay for electric blankets. boooooo on being alone.

love, posey

the satisfaction.

i miss tom. there i said it.
haven't heard from him in weeks.
the ex moved on.

being stuck inside my house is no fun.
i wish this ice storm would end already.
it snowed in austin today.

if it snows in san antonio it will be the first time since 1985. that means it has not snowed in san antonio in over 22 years. crazy.

i have pictures of me in the snow from 1985. i was 8 years old. awww.

all my patio furniture is covered in ice. sweet.
a little black cat keeps meowing on my door. i want to let it in but i don't even know where it came from. i feel bad. if my loft wasn't all carpet things might be different.

i'm lonely.

NO.

Jan. 15th, 2007 | 02:47 pm
mood: coldcold
F.Y.I. - San Antonio, Texas = Freezing. I hope it snows. (Psssh, Yeah Right!)
They said it might snow but I'll believe it when I see it. I love my new laptop.
New Picture of me

in the nude for love.

location: parents
mood: content
music: moonriver - audrey hepburn

the weather is miserable yet beautiful. my hands are cold but my face is warm. i am listening to audrey hepburn's version of moon river. very comforting. spent most of the afternoon  messaging with vincent valdez. haven't talked to him in awhile. he sent me a message saying he liked my hair in my new myspace pic. awww. ha. i finally bought a new laptop. dvd burner. hell yes! this is all for now. must tend to business. rosie.