december..

<p>cannot believe the year is almost over. this has to be the quickiest year that has ever gone by.&nbsp; i just finished dropping off my rent check. two days late i might add. not good. i had to&nbsp;pay 40 dollars in late fees. got introduced to a new little dive bar last night. this bar is right across the street from my apartment complex . good jukebox. semi-alright drink specials. hmmmm. now i know where to go when i feel to lazy to drive anywhere.&nbsp;i still miss russ a little. we had not seen eachother for five years so i hope it isn't another five years before we see eachother again. what's up with me and the city of los angeles. two weekends ago v. was in town from l.a. (hung with him.) this past weekend russ was in town from l.a. (hung with him.) both are completely awesome/dateable people but they live in l.a. i'm single i should be having a ball but the only two people i feel remotely attracted to or crush on live more than 1,000 miles away. oh well. who even knows if they even like me in that way to begin with. bah. vincent valdez did message me today asking what i was doing for new year's but c'mon thats the most random question ever. i work wed- friday this week from 8-5 downtown. i do not have to work clinique until december 16th. at least i have a weekend to spend with my family cause i sort of miss them and still haven't seen my aunts who are here from italy. got netflix in so i'm watching alias season 5 tonight. please don't suck. guess this is all. rose<br /><br /></p>

sad.sad.sad

boo. i'm sad. russ is already gone. took him to the airport about an hour ago which means right now he is on a plane headed back to l.a.
had one of the funniest nights EVER. picked up russ from airport @ 11:30 and we were off to meet up with van and brad at bar america.
russ had his first lone star. haha. we stayed about an hour then headed off to the mix to meet up with sara and joey. at mix we are all drinking
and having a good time then joey mentions "the haunted tracks." since sara and russ had never been there that became the plan for the night.
completely down for whatever russ and i both agree to go. we met up at joey's house and while we are all deciding what car to go in joey mentions his 57' chevy.
bad idea. that car took FOREVER to start and once it was started i noticed it didnt have any passenger windows. ummmm temperature around 40 degrees. sure, best idea.
sara runs in to find blankets for us but no blankets were found. she came out with two bed sheets and our dumb asses were like okay, let's go.
we get to the haunted tracks around 3:00 a.m. and it was pitch black, creepy, no signs of anyone anywhere. we go over the haunted tracks. (scary!) then someone said, let's do it again and the second time we do it JOEYS CAR DIES. so us four are STRANDED at the HAUNTED TRACKS! finally a car stops and helps us out. strangers take joey and sara to pick up gas and russ and stayed behind in the middle of nowhere, alone, no lights, no cars, in a wooded secluded area. i felt like i was in lost and the others were going to appear and take us away.
dude it so felt like the beginning of a horror movie. i am being so serious. finally sara and joey come back with gas and car starts.
on the way home russ and i did some serious cuddling cause it was soooo coooold. then out of the blue and totally unexpected he kissed me. awwwww.
got back to joey's around 5:00 a.m. russ and i ended up getting a hotel room in downtown cause i was too tired to drive all the way home. serious sleep was had.

today was fun. woke up around 10:00. checked out @ 11:00 then walked to the alamo to do the usual tourist stuff. walked all over downtown. had a nice lunch. stopped at my place for a bit so russ could nap then went to durty nelly's for some irish coffee, beer, whiskey, singalong fun. soon after it was time for him to leave already. didn't even give him proper goodbye cause after consuming all those beverages and not having used a bathroom, i had to pee sooooo bad that our goodbye was basically 5 seconds.

no kiss. boo.

he kissed me twice last night. once in the car and once after we fell asleep he woke me up to kiss me. so sweet. today we didn't even mention the kiss(s.) me being to shy to mention them.
man i miss him already.

it is 41 degrees outside. what !!!!

mmmm.. i am eating pei wei leftovers right now. delicious. spurs lost twice in a row. boo. i am trying to get out of going to mc allen for clinique but it doesn't look like it is going to happen so i should start packing my bags tonight. sucky. last&nbsp; night was fun and seriously old school went out with cros, scuba, and brian to go throw darts and drink beer. made a 1:45 a.m. stop into bar america to have a drink with erich before ending the night.

p.s. i am so excited i get to wear a sweater today

love, rose

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<div align="center">is it just me or is top chef ALWAYS on?&nbsp; i want to go somewhere and watch the spurs game tonight. first i need to find some where to go and second i need to find somebody to go there with. i&nbsp; am craving pei wei bad. mmmm spring rolls and miso bowl. the weather is shifting. i can hear actual wind blowing outside. why is it still tank top weather here? v. told me last night that it might snow in dallas tomorrow. hmmmm. i am so sick and tired of britney spears vagina already. i mean even the old bats at the hospital were gossiping about it over sweet bread and coffee. geezus!!!! <br /><br />p.s.&nbsp; i am really craving pei wei. <br /><br />thisis all. finito. rose</div>

don't do it

do not ever watch dot the i with gael garcia bernal. it sucks balls. the end. rose

signs ..

<div align="center">texting with le' artist vincent valdez right now and he just told me that he checked our zodiac signs online to see if&nbsp; we were compatible. ha. cute.<br /></div>

gobble gobble

hope everyone had a good thanksgiving. i got sucked into grey's anatomy tonight. f'ing christina, she pisses me off..... i'm a little giddy. i had (count em') 3 missed calls from le' artist vincent. i finally called him back and he asked me out to dinner and drinks tomorrow night. eep.... i do not know if this is a date but c'mon dinner-drinks... i haven't&nbsp; gone out on a date or with a guy like this in over 2 years....&nbsp; what to wear? what outfit makes me look slender? how do i wear my hair? --- geezlaweez, i'm a dork....

gimme a break, like i said, i haven't gone on a date that has involved an actual dinner in YEARS ..

in other bleh news i have to work for clinique tomorrow, sat, and sun. booooooooo !!!!!!!
at least next weekend i'll be doing make-up out of town fri-sun. so i'll have a mini-vacation.
i love love love staying in hotels. my last hotel stay was in tucson and boy did that suck. off topic.

okay back to boy topic. he is only in town for 4 days then goes back to l.a. for work. so that's another booooo!

i haven't been this excited to hang with someone in a long time.... it feels good.

night lovelies.

past....

from time to time i like to go back and read old journal entries. i read this journal entry i had posted in 2004 about me thinking lou was mad at me and in that entry i actually wrote <i>i don't know what i would do if we never spoke again ...</i>&nbsp; well i guess i'd do just fine because it's been two whole years that we have not spoken .... wow.. where does the time go? <br /><br />it is an extremely unpleasant feeling knowing somebody for eight years and having a physical/emotional relationship with them and now this person has turned into a stranger that you don't even know anymore. it gives me little pangs to my heart. <br /><br />my space has been awfully funny with me lately. i got a message from this random guy named vincent about a month ago i never bothered to check his profile page but he sent me a message asking if he could add me as a friend, i let that message sit in my inbox for weeks before responding. finally i was like yeah, sure... then he sent another message saying he lived in san antonio previously and had never seen me around. i sent him a message back saying, yeah i never saw you around either. well we have been messaging eachother every other day and today i finally went to his profile page and viewed his pics. ha! i went to middle school and high school with this person. small world. even after high school and spending most of 20's living in southtown and blue star i never ran into him and what i read in his profileand (ahem! googled!) he is a really big artist now. he lives in l.a. now but will be in town for 4 days during thanksgiving so we plan on hanging out and talking about how we never talked in middle school and in high school.... truly funny stuff. now that i think of it he was on the s.a. current front page now too long ago either... hahaha. god i'm dumb.... <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />

No Subject

the days can be endless. i just picked up baby pia from school with my mum. i don't know why i still call her "baby" pia she just turned 7 for pete's sake. old habits die hard. today i worked one job and it felt so good. yesterday i worked the hospital then worked @ clinique at saks 5th ave. what <s>fun</s> complete bore!
i actually fell asleep before nine last night. god i'm lame. promised sara i wouldn't be a hermit and would show my face at p.j.'s tonight. i have no fashion sense anymore. scrubs by day, labcoats by night. :(

hello ??? anyone out there ????

have not had the time to update. i'm still work/struggling in the hospital full time monday thru friday. i also just got hired with clinique as a freelance make-up artist for special events and what nots. extra money sounds so good. i ain't gonna lie. i'm broke. i just moved into my new place. i went from a two bedroom home with backyard and front yard to a 930 sq. feet split level loft. i don't have all the room i used to have but i can't help but smile each time i walk into my new little place. it is so cozy and so tucked away from the outside world that sometimes i wake up and never want to leave. i still have boxes and boxed of things i have not unpacked. all will come together soon i hope. tom and i are still broken up but he has moved into my new place for one month so he can find a new place. we have lived together for two years and i felt like ass each time i thought about leaving him with no place to live. one month is all i gave him so hopefully this kindess of mine pays off. in my new place i have free basic cable and have caught a couple of the new top chef episodes. tom is a chef and everytime i see marcel i cringe cause that is EXACTLY the type of person i live with except without marcel's crazy hair. the attitude, the cockiness. the i'm better than everyone else. the fucking molecular gastronomy. THAT IS TOM !!!!!

--- lunch time. i'm at work. so adios. hope everyone is good. xoxo.