Finito.

break-up news
yawn. i am drained. tom & i got into this morning and went into it till late this evening. he decided we should seperate. we decided it was over. i'm sad but oh well shit happens. such is life. que sera sera. i am not too excited on the fact that now i have to find a place to live. i moved in with him and i have furniture, clothes, you name it, i brought it here. that's the shit part of all of this. tom took of and didn't say when he was coming back home. i feel like a stranger in here now. like if i'm not supposed to be here or something. am i supposed to start packing my stuff and moving? cause i'm really @ a loss with what to do with myself right now.

in other non-related fucked up news. spoke to lou earlier on in the week and he is engaged. flashback: melissa called to say they were engaged, lou denied said engagement, now all of a sudden their engaged. @ 40 years old i didn't think one had to lie. he called yesterday but i didn't answer the phone. for what? he was too scared to tell me cause he knew i would be hurt. news flash: tom beat him to that punch!

the people i love aren't all cracked up to be who i thought they were. i'm sure i'm not all cracked up to who they thought i was either. in all seriousness i'm too old for this shit. i just want my old life back. i want my single-life with my little house on clay st. with my cats and my neighbors and the good times that surrounded me there. i know that won't ever happen again but one can dream right.

off to look around and just take everything in. xoxo.

hung the fuck.

mood: still hungover.

so.tired.right.now.
last night was so much fun. good god i drank myself silly. 8:30 p.m. - 1:30 a.m. my poor liver.
this morning didn't help either. couldn't sleep it off due to 10 a.m. interview. i actually think i was still intoxicated this morning during interview. headache all day. ouch. so not fun. got call today from law office i applied at and they denied me employment. i was under-qualifed. i needed 6 + years in litigation. i only have 5. COULDN'T THEY F'ING CUT ME A BREAK WITH THAT ONE YEAR! i'm thinking customer serv. is the way to go for now. sitting on my ass and making it fatter whilst answering calls. indeed. highlight of my day was having madhatter's for lunch. so good. le boyfriend tom just informed me it's already going to be 11:00 and i have a second interview tomorrow @ 9:00 a.m. so i need to gets me some sleep. night all. <3.

i kind of find i like a life this loney ...

stuck in my head: come on home: franz ferdinand

last night. so much fun. mr. taco karaoke goodness. i got to see eva and van and dave and robbie and his loud drunken girlfriend. got compliments on my hair and from what i remember i didn't do one damn thing to it. pony tail. bangs in face. hmmmm. alright. ended up going to the mix around midnight. got to see everyone i've missed. mangina totally ditched me. i am slitting my wrist. deeneese is coming over around 2:00 for a movie date. sweet. rent is due today. tomorrow it's late. i have to pay it tomorrow though. sucks. i hate being late on important shite!

happy thursday ! <3

anger. resentment. subside. my heart.

Feb. 17th, 2005 | 01:52 pm
mood: angry but not at him
texas weather. i tell ya. what happened to the sun?

called lou to congratulate him on his "engagement". i already knew what i kind of suspected. leave it to melissa to text me in the middle of the night and do some shit like that. scream match 2K5 that lasted a good 35 minutes. he thanked me for listening to everything he had to say and just get off his chest. i don't nececassarily like listening to someone screaming at me but at least i wasn't the cause or the culprit for the screaming. is it bad for me to tell him, to just get his shit and move back to queens ALONE? cause that's what i did.

in other news: i have a clean house (finally) and my job search is going steadily. two interviews locked for tomorrow and i'm crossing my fingers that one can offer me something with semi-decent pay and benefits. i'll take a pay-cut. i just want to work. time to do laundry and cook me some lunch.

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mood: i don't know how to explain it

woke up to a mobile that had 5 missed calls. one stuck out. in the middle of the night lou called to let me know him and melissa got engaged. well isn't that just lovely.

...

mood: loved
music: hounds of love - kate bush

weekend overall: Good!

highlight of weekend was the constant calling and harassment of smidgie, e.r. fabulous, and tobias. got a nice and simple text from the lou yesterday around 8:00 p.m. while he was @ practice. text said: i miss you. i thought it was thoughtful. tom on the other hand asked why some guy with a 917 area code missed me. he wasn't upset or anything. tom is awesome like that. speaking of awesome. this morning = corn tortillas for breakfast. so good. the weather is once again SHITE!

dear san antonio, texas
is it too much to ask for one sunny day?
love, rosie

i woke up with kate bush's hounds of love in mah head. go away already. it's been two hours now.

tonight = hank 3. anyone else going to the show?

stop everything

Feb. 1st, 2005 | 03:32 pm
mood: wouldn't miss it for the world

new order. bauhaus. cocteau twins. i cannot miss this. i will cancel every single trip i was supposed to take this year. let this be my sole trip of 2005.
people on my friends list.  quit reminding me how good this will be.  i am there.
COACHELLA